A Broken Heart Story

Every morning I woke up cursing... Every night I cry when I think of her before I sleep...

It was one year ago when I met her through a mutual friend. She is a fashion designer and like all designers, she has a fashionable and attractive look.

2 weeks after we met, she asked me out on a date. I cannot believe it because I have been single for 24 years (ok I am 24 years old) and suddenly an attractive girl asked me out. Of course I agreed. We usually went out two times a week. There was one time she asked,

She: "Oei... How come I am the one always asking you out? Can't you ask me out once?"
Me: "Can. But since it is so predictable when you are asking me out, then I just wait for you to ask."

One day, when I was sending her home, she told me that she does not want to go home early and I suggested sitting at the playground near her house. We sat side by side and then she lay her head on my shoulder. It was a warm feeling and she was the first girl to lie on my shoulder.
She told me about her abusive boyfriend and how bad he was to her. That day she lie on my shoulder for hours and in my heart I hope this feeling doesn't end...

We have knew each other for 2 months when one day I suggested we go to the beach. We were strolling along the beach when we saw this viewing tower on a little island. To reach there we have to cross a drop bridge which connect the beach to the little island. She suggested we both go up to the top of the tower which was five stories tall. When we reach the top, there was no one...

The view was beautiful with the vast sea in sight and many passing ships. However I wasn't interested in the view, I was interested in the beautiful creature in front of me... We sat down and she lay her head on my shoulder again. This time she doesn't talk to me about her boyfriend. We sat there for 10 minutes and then she turn her head towards me smiling, her head still on my shoulder.

She: "Have you kiss a girl before?"
Me: "No... Do you want to be the first one?"

She moved her head and kiss me on my lips deeply and it dawns on me that this is my first kiss. It has gone to this beautiful creature in front of me... And it will be a kiss I never forget...

Soon after we held hands when we go out and at every opportunity when there was no one around, we will steal kisses with each other. The kisses were hot and passionate, understandable for a young man like me and it was my first relationship.

However our relationship was never open, it was not featured in our social networking profile like facebook or friendster. Her boyfriend was seldom mentioned and to me he was non existent because if she still likes him, she would not go out with me, I consider that as silent break. And as to why our relationship was not an open one, I am not concern as long as we are together...

One day, while we were out sitting opposite each other in a cafe. I remember it was raining that day and she was looking out of the window. Suddenly she said to me that she couldn't forget her ex-boyfriend and wants to go back to him. Upon hearing this, I was heart broken... She told me she likes me but she didn't love me.

What do you mean by that? If you didn't love me, why would you let me hold your hands, kiss you on your lips, touch your body and let me hug you. I couldn't understand... I couldn't comprehend what is happening... It was our fifth month of knowing each other.

2 weeks later, she called me to say she missed me and wants to come back to me. I was happy and thought that she finally knows who she truly loves. We were back together again. 1 month later, she left me again...

This time she went back to her ex-boyfriend for good. The 2nd time she not only smash my already broken heart into more pieces but also left me with no confidence of a 2nd relationship. I was totally fooled by this woman. This time she told me she was not good enough for me and that she is a player. She usually choose guys who have been in relationship before and not first timers like me.

I don't understand why she chose to go back to her abusive boyfriend when she keeps complaining about him and telling me how bad he treats her. I deleted her away from all my social networking tools like facebook and friendster. She kept smsing me and instant messaging me. I told her to leave me alone and block her on msn. Don't wish to see her again...

The End......?